These are the words you wish you wrote down... but not really

Here are a few poems culled from my notebooks from 2008. I happened upon them today. Most of them are pretty short & sweet. Not really complete poems, just a lot of gibberish. I wish I could call some of them sonnets, hahaha but these, uh yeah, not really. Oh, and in my notebooks, they have kick ass poetic stanza. Here in my blog, well I can't make the words line up the way I would like. So it does take away from them. With a few I can recall exactly where I was coming from, and others, well not so much anymore. I'm like "OK, now what on earth was I thinking that day?" Anyways, enjoy or don't. It's all good!


Romantic


At a loss for breath
I stammer on
rambling nervously

Abruptly
I am silenced
with a kiss



Sabotage


Sitting
in
the
ruins
Looking
at
the
pieces
Convincing
myself
to
accept
that
waiting
this
time
would
only
be
in
vain
For
I
have
annihilated
my
Prince
Charming
He
has
become
a
casualty
of
my
ways.



A developing addiction


Don't want to look too eager,
but I am as eager as can be.

I am getting hooked on that
voice
laugh
presence.

I am so screwed.



A display of insincere behavior


thanks
for
the doubt,
it's appreciated
today.
it makes denying
the
eventual
so much
easier
to do.


Vacay


I want time off
a break from
you
Until
you're in my arms
you touch my face
you breathe
scent envelopes me

I'll never leave




wish list


Can someone
please
NOTICE
I am struggling
so
very
much
My heart is
heavy
with confusion
distraction
helplessness
loss
This falsity
makes
EVERYTHING
seem
so
pointless

Can I get fries with that?


Spark


Just
a little
Match
I thought to
myself
nothing to
fear
easily
contained
i frolicked
carelessly
in the
smoke
i
blink
my
eyes
and suddenly
the blaze
is
unbearable



Traveler


Please walk in whenever it is
convenient

I've shown you that you are
welcome

However, mind you, I am very
nice...


Luggage


I need to make
a transition
Who could continue
in this fashion?
My eyes and stomach
are oh so weary
And they bags
they are
so
heavy.



Friday


All you have ever wanted
walks through the door.

Are
you
ready?



Arachnida


Barely aquiantances
but you're so consuming
It's known that this is complete
trespassing.

Then why does it
feel
so
right?



fallacious


A work of fiction
this
happiness
Who ever really
ascertains
it in it's purity?
my
assurance
is
broken
but honestly,
really
who
cares?



Home Improvement


It's
been
broken
so
long
that
I'm
starting
to
find
that
I
like
it
that
way.



half-Witted


How stupid I've been.
How easily I am led.
Did I truly
beLIEve
that
YOU
could ever
really be
good
for
me?

You
who cannot be
swayed
by anything
aside
from
novelty.



Sacrifice


I keep myself
firmly
securely
safely
at the right distance


I know at any given moment
fading
lacking
waning
will take their hold


Your energy will be directed
elsewhere
away
far from me
and I am unwilling


For we are alike
You and I
artistic
fickle
emotional

And I refuse to be
The
Sacrifice



KC


I don't
owe
you

You are cruel
too busy to see

I don't
want
you

You are heartless
frozen in your ways

But
i cannot say
without
fraudelence
that
I don't
love
you

for eternity
i
will