You better watch your weight or your weight will watch you... 5/21/10

I am a fortunate to work for a company that cares about our well being enough to offer us a lot of programs to stay healthy along with all of the other benefits. Well we had the opportunity to sign up for Weight Watchers at Work.

Now I have been on the eternal mission to lose ten pounds pretty much for the whole of my adult life. I bitch about it. I whine. Well over the winter season and holidays I lamely packed on another 7 or so. NOT GOOD! So when work decided to do Weight Watchers I was on that bus whole heartedly.

In the first 5 weeks I have lost 8 pounds. Each week it varies from a 3 pound loss down to a 1 pound loss, but I've always lost. However, being a perfectionist the weeks I only lost the one pound I subsequently beat the crap out of myself emotionally for the rest of the day. I'm pretty much pissed. You think I'd just be glad that those horrible unwanted LBs are gone, but noooo....

Today was a one pound day. I was acting like Baby in Dirty Dancing when Johnny gets fired anyway even after she rats herself out for spending the night in his room. I DID IT ALL FOR NOTHING! No fast food, no delicious candy enjoyment, zilch. AND then to make it up to myself I ate a Milky Way bar. In complete vengeance against said diet that screwed me over. I also just realized that a Milky Way is basically a 3 Musketeers Bar with caramel on top. Yeah, yeah, most people probably know that already, but for some reason it was an epiphany for me. Tasty, but it actually made me sick to my stomach since I have been weaned off of junk and now it no longer agrees with me anymore. WTH?! That is lame and sucky!

Anyways, here in the aftermath the words of Jimmy Eat World hit me… (who I own all of one song of theirs)

It just takes some time.
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright.

* note, I didn't bother to look that up. My version works fine to prove my random non-important point.

Guess it's time to stop kickin my own ass over it and keep on truckin.