Time Can't Erase A Feeling This Strong...

(Note - this bottom pic isn't really that old, I just took a picture of it on the wall with my phone.)


Last Thursday night I was watching old home videos. Ever since last Thursday I have been filled with dread. The dang kids are growing up and I am powerless to stop it!

Now it is gonna sound like pure insanity, but there are times when I wish we could go back to those moments when they were so little, so sweet, and such a pain in the ass to take care of. Yes, to the days of diapers, and bottles, and not being able to do one single fun thing I want to with my pals unless I'm dragging along a car seat.

I often brag it up that I will have grown kids by 40. However, I'm starting to wonder if that is all it's cracked up to be... I will be the first of my friends to have a kid drive, to move out (possibly), and all the other firsts that are less than fun.

Although, as sad as it is that they have to grow up they are indeed growing up into the most amazing people. Thing 2 is super creative and obsessed with all things monkey. He recently wrote and illustrated an entire notebook full of monkey stories to include titles such as 'The Monkey Planet' and 'Monkeys Join The Army'. And Thing 1 is an outstanding baseball player. He is so good he just may be able to take care of his parents if he chose a career in MLB.

It's just those moments when I realize there is nothing I can do to stall time, the moments when they do some awesome new thing I never knew they were capable of - those are the moments that are bittersweet. I am so proud of them every second of every single day.

I just really wish I could hit the pause button, if only for tonight.