In times of late work and family stuff has caused me to be too busy to write. Basically, I have been doing something all of the time, every day, pausing only to sleep when I must. With that hiatus it has also drained me of some of my natural writer’s motivation that I have always had in me for as long as I can remember. So I thought I would put together something simple to kick this writer’s block. I have seen a few of these type posts going around the webs lately (and they were cute/funny/coolish) so I thought I would kill some time, although short, with my own version.
If you really knew me…
...you’d know that I sometimes worry too much what people think. Not because I think others are better than me, but because I care so much about their feelings. When I really love/like/care about someone I worry a lot about how they feel in regards to me or if I ever let them down. And I feel super guilty if I have to say no, or be too critical, or I, heaven forbid, get a little bit mad at them.
...you’d know that I am head over heels obsessed with music. Day in day out I am listening to every single word of every song I hear and I fall in love. I love the words so much that I am constantly thinking of ways to immortalize them in tattoos on my body, that thus far I have never actually gotten, but I have thought up thousands of them.
...you’d know that I am terrified a lot of something bad happening to my family and friends. I also think of every worst case scenario and scare myself even more when I can’t get a hold of someone. Car crashes, kidnappers, cults... I am to say the least, a little neurotic. I know, I know, I’m nutty.
...you’d know that I love too much and too deeply. This has meant over the years I get hurt a little deeper than I probably should. I have loved people who didn’t deserve it and people who I really had no business loving. However, it when it comes to actual lovers/relationships I have had less than nearly all of my friends. But still, I love hard.
...you’d know that I don’t sleep a lot. It’s not because I actually have a hard time falling asleep. In reality I could probably fall asleep right now if I were to lie down. The issue is that I don’t want to sleep. I have so many things I mentally plan to do every day. With my busy job, being a mommy, having a home to care for, etc etc, I just want to do a few “me” things. Unfortunately it turns out the only time I have time for those tends to be between 11:30pm and 2:00am. So no, I am not on drugs. I’m not that adventurous yo. I am just a weirdo.
...you’d know that one of my most important goals is to be happy. Life is never gonna be perfect so we have to make the most of every day we have. One thing about me is that I can over think and over analyze with the best of them so I have to consciously try to be happier and just “Let it be”. Hey! I should really get that tattooed on me ;)
...you’d know that I google everything. I have an annoying little habit of really liking (aka HAVING TO BE) to be right. So I am often looking stuff up to validate my points. Sometimes a thought just pops into my mind, or I read something that sparks an interest and then I learn ALL THAT I CAN about it. I like to become an expert. If you are interested in the price of anything, need info on unsolved murders, or want to know what the time is in Australia, I'm your gal!
So there are a few charissaisms for ya. Are any of my home-slices interested in sharing a few of their own too? Send em my way.
2 comments:
Love this post! I too have a google addiction that I can't seem to shake .... (not that I've tried very hard) ;)
I can so relate to the Google thing.. then I have to bite my lip when I prove myself right, in order to keep from saying "I told you so." ;)
That cherry crumble below.. drool!
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